What happened to you missy? You’re not the girl I knew anymore. You saw and felt this coming. Now look at you.
It can be tough. But through it all, it comes down to me saying, “what can I do, I love him”.
So, me and rachel were exploring her twitter. & i keeep thinking, i’m not one who stops what i’m doing so i can tweet about it. but if i can stop and post one thing to tweet about —it’d be just this:
You make me happy. I love you. Thank you. Goodnight!
made my night a good laugh! ty buddy!
The 5 of us are at home! It’s weird, i dont really remember life with all of us here since my sister moved out when i was 11. It feels…..very heartwarming. I have an awesome boyfriend texting me, a family who is not perfect but is my family no less. Family that i love and a boyfriend as well. Although some situations right now arent the greatest moments of my life, i feel quite content!
- regular hw (most a piece of cake….MOST)
- printer not workign so i cant print my important crap
- gota review all this scholarship stuff
- gota prepare for placement test
- gota focus on my two personal projects
I, all of a sudden, feel like there’s no time within the day. i think i needa eat. -______-
exploring tumblr, seeing what’s going on with the people who make up my high school life. & the cute animal photos which continue to make me want a friendly pet. like in aladdin jasmine’s tiger rajha! (idk how to spell his name, forgive me). then i realize, i gota sleep soon. why the hell arent i in my bed reading hp7?!!
i just passed through some 2009 pictures. sophmore year, greatest swim season for me. haha that’s the only time i remember of my sophmore year…swim team. everything else is a huge blurr. but when i think of that season, i think of the people i would hang out with…a lot. not only during practice but…OH i remember gym with elaine! k now everything else is a blur. & PHYSICS WITH VIC! im not saying i love you guys any less, i still do! & i hope you know im ALWAYS here for you! omg idk where im going with this. haha
the set of friends i had then, some i barely talk to. a few, i talk to occasionally to hang out/talk, but it’s gotten so hard with people working/volunteering…ppl doing their own things…and it comes down to ‘sorry im busy, maybe next time?’ and we all know that means ‘ima forget to hang out with you, im sorry’. it sucks. of course some would make the effort to make an attempt to hang out, but of course priorities are first. but some i can imagine would be like, ‘i dont talk to her now…idc’ & i think…really? that’s what your friendship with so-so means to you? yeah you’re busy so you gota focus on other things but…idk seems harsh. (maybe i am too nice..)
im sad now.
you love me ;]
- Mom: Wow, you're that good?!
- Me: [glares] THANKS MOM!
- (like she doesnt see me battle the essays/long walc assignments/precal hw almost everyday!! (not all at once of course..))
- my mother. haha!
baked cupcakes and cookies with my BFF Ms. Dina Estipona! i’m so gona gain weight during this break. fuuuuuuuuck!
an hour or maybe a little less all for gabe bondoc
even if it sucks” —
Morning: started the day chill! ate, waited to digest for 30-45 minutes by reading! Then played Just Dance with my mama! Then more reading!
Noon-Afternoon: Decided i had nothing to do. What better thing to do for myself than to work out?! Ran two miles, heeellla outa shape. tsk. did some arm exercises with the weights. prom man! awesome warm shower. Ugh, i wana go back into the poool! Watched Blind Side for the nth time! Still makes me smile, heh! Later on, asked my mom if Simonne can come over after his work. She said yes! :D came over around late 5ish, and took some pics on my mac! Theeen around 6:45 started watching Leap Year! ;]
8ish? hahah mom caught me and simonne hugging in the kitchen. hilarious! i love my mom and her concerns. She’s a great mama, :] My dad…haha yeeah i found out i cant be tooo close around guys when he’s around. Just shows that he cares! haha! I’m happy he came though, made me happy!
9-10: watching some tfc christmas party with all the actors and such. dude, theres a guy singing opera with justin beiber’s song…. 0.o
Idk why i’m blogging my day…out of all days! But today, how chill it was and relaxing….i’m with my parents and spent a few hours at night with the oh so silly simonne, and found out rachel’s coming over (yaaaay!) makes me reeeeally happy! :D <3
never be replaced-1st lady.
brings me back to denman years! haha, cute!
then few minutes later, me and simonne start singing the song together! haha cute once again!
woke up with the feeling of stress and fear. later in the day, pushed it off—she’ll be fine. middle of the school—broke down. i knew holding it in wouldnt be so good *sigh. rest of the day, i faked it. smiles were not from the heart today. afterschool, more crying. the talk was supposed to make me feel better and it did for a moment. then sadness flew back in. i didnt like today—not at all. headed straight for the shower. parents were coming home. (id prefer a poool but a bath is sooo not an option with this weather). later in the day, mom gives me a bomb saying im not going to sfstate. that theres a nursing school i can attend right away, money saved, time not wasted unlike many students now a days.i was hoping for sf state. she said i had a say on where i wanted to go…but i dont even know if i want nursing. maybe it’s just the feeling of today, not wanting to do anything. so who knows…
tears keep fallling today—it’s annoying. i wish i can control when i can start/stop. annoying. very annnoying.
it’s crazy. how you’re so close to a friend/friend for years—like a year or two ago—but now they’re total strangers to you. Yet, no ones doing anything to improve this. is that what’s called being a friend? something like this makes me don’t the saying of being close friends through thick and thin.
*sigh. what’s happening to the world.