The 5 of us are at home! It’s weird, i dont really remember life with all of us here since my sister moved out when i was 11. It feels…..very heartwarming. I have an awesome boyfriend texting me, a family who is not perfect but is my family no less. Family that i love and a boyfriend as well. Although some situations right now arent the greatest moments of my life, i feel quite content!
Morning: started the day chill! ate, waited to digest for 30-45 minutes by reading! Then played Just Dance with my mama! Then more reading!
Noon-Afternoon: Decided i had nothing to do. What better thing to do for myself than to work out?! Ran two miles, heeellla outa shape. tsk. did some arm exercises with the weights. prom man! awesome warm shower. Ugh, i wana go back into the poool! Watched Blind Side for the nth time! Still makes me smile, heh! Later on, asked my mom if Simonne can come over after his work. She said yes! :D came over around late 5ish, and took some pics on my mac! Theeen around 6:45 started watching Leap Year! ;]
8ish? hahah mom caught me and simonne hugging in the kitchen. hilarious! i love my mom and her concerns. She’s a great mama, :] My dad…haha yeeah i found out i cant be tooo close around guys when he’s around. Just shows that he cares! haha! I’m happy he came though, made me happy!
9-10: watching some tfc christmas party with all the actors and such. dude, theres a guy singing opera with justin beiber’s song…. 0.o
Idk why i’m blogging my day…out of all days! But today, how chill it was and relaxing….i’m with my parents and spent a few hours at night with the oh so silly simonne, and found out rachel’s coming over (yaaaay!) makes me reeeeally happy! :D <3
woke up with the feeling of stress and fear. later in the day, pushed it off—she’ll be fine. middle of the school—broke down. i knew holding it in wouldnt be so good *sigh. rest of the day, i faked it. smiles were not from the heart today. afterschool, more crying. the talk was supposed to make me feel better and it did for a moment. then sadness flew back in. i didnt like today—not at all. headed straight for the shower. parents were coming home. (id prefer a poool but a bath is sooo not an option with this weather). later in the day, mom gives me a bomb saying im not going to sfstate. that theres a nursing school i can attend right away, money saved, time not wasted unlike many students now a days.i was hoping for sf state. she said i had a say on where i wanted to go…but i dont even know if i want nursing. maybe it’s just the feeling of today, not wanting to do anything. so who knows…
tears keep fallling today—it’s annoying. i wish i can control when i can start/stop. annoying. very annnoying.
it’s crazy. how you’re so close to a friend/friend for years—like a year or two ago—but now they’re total strangers to you. Yet, no ones doing anything to improve this. is that what’s called being a friend? something like this makes me don’t the saying of being close friends through thick and thin.
recently, i annoy myself a lot. it sounds so weird—how the hell do you annoy yourself? why??!! well for me, i over think a lot. makes me annoyed of whatever im thinking about and annoyed at myself for overthinking about something that shouldnt be worth my time thinking about. (follow me here) so double the annoyance level. then start crying over it. triple the annoyance level. then you realize (or i realize) that im crying over some serious bullshit. there was nothing to cry over at all. im now on level four on my annoyance scale. then i get annoyed all day faking the smile and yadadadada—for what? absolutely nothing. for what reason? i’ve been asking myself that same question all day. annoyed much? YEAH!
im sorry for taking it out on you. idk but something just triggers those tear duds. it annoys me too.
mr. b’s work.
please reducing waste people. DO SOMETHING FOR OUR PROJECT!!!!! dont make my annoyance go to the fifth level. -_____-
pms-ing much? i think so too. *sigh. 17 better not be like this all year. ima be on something for sure if this is a consistent thing. (im so kidding—id never do that, hehe)
i find it cute that my mom reminds me to be careful when falling in love. she tells me it’s not an easy process to get out of it. It’s funny cause i know that already—not perfectly of course, but i know the process of going in and out. but i love how she cares.
it’s heeellla pouring outside!!! i hope people will be safe driving!
it’s funny how i get excited when it rains! i mean come on, Mother Nature’s giving us rain which people in desserts pray for almost every day. We should be thankful we have a sufficient supply of water. But hey, 2 minutes ago…it was REALLY pouring and the strong wind. super funny and awesome…buut seriously scary. & im alone. better not be a brown out…or black out…whatever.hot cocoa time? or tea?
For the next grading period TURN YOUR SHIT IN ON TIME!
i know it’s tough considering hella things are happening all at once, but you cannot let yourself fall because of stress—or for anything for that matter. i know you will not let yourself go so low where you let laziness and shit take you away from your future. stop being lazy and do your homework on time! yeah prioritizing one’s time is tough, but your gona be an adult soon. you’re gona have to learn it eventually. & yeah new great and sad things have happened this past grading period—more great and sad things will happen in the future, but remember to focus on your priorities. you got this. stop slacking! stop making yourself stress on things you shouldve taken care of in the first place!
okay fine, i’ll be more lenient with you—you can turn stuff in a day late. BUT only ONE day late. ONLY. k bye.
you know what sucks about growing up? You tend to get too busy to think about or talk to the people who helped you grow. i hate the idea of losing a friend—especially over something that isnt even worth the separation. whether there is nothing to be said or whatever, at least the other person knows you’re still there.
so let me ask you, are you still there?
Cause if it seems like im not there for you, i’ll smack you in the head to notice im still here. But if you’re not, and you left on your own—then that’s on you.
“First it is about observing the world with genuine curiosity and admitting that it is full of mysteries. Second, it is about trying to solve those mysteries in ways that are consistent with the general proposition that human behavior is usually designed to serve a purpose.”—Steven E. Landsburg
“But people are always speculating—why am I as I am? To understand that of any person, his whole life, from birth, must be reviewed. All of our experiences fuse into our personality. Everything that ever happened to us is an ingredient.”—Malcolm X
listening to nsync! those old days when i was like…6 or 7? i used to think JC was cute. LOL. me dancing to their songs with cousins. *sigh* good times. the years when days were filled with happiness. when i could eat anything i want and not thinking about health or figure. no responsibilites, no papers to worry about. where boys had cooties.